"How could you be so heartless..?"

Today I lost my best friend. And surprisingly, i don't give a shit. Actually, i've had this "care-free" mind-set for awhile but it's just settling in that i feel no pain anymore.

Okay, so basically i have these feelings or in my case i don't have feelings because i was hurt in a relationship got my heart broken all that good ishh'. I put all my trust in him and all that crap and of course he was cheating on me the whole time we went out whateverr.

Anyways, so i lost my best friend today or whatever because her and her sister got in this fight and was scrappin'. She called me crying or whatever i'm like okay chill. It'll be okay because knowing her she&her sister would be right back on each other's nuts later (which is true!). So i told my friend Megan cuz' i was going to her house and i was at her concert and i had to leave to calm ol' girl down and she saw me leave her concert and i looked worried apparently outside the door so she said. So i told her..she got mad cuz' i told her and anothe ron of her closest friends. WTF? You gon' get mad cuz' i told someone you were already gonna tell anyways? She was like the point was you told..get the FUCK outta here. So now we're not friends.

But i feel so heartless because i told her everything and she was so real and i feel nothing. I'm not sad, happy, relieved..nothing. I'm so chill about the situation! I'm amazed like idk. This is so wierd. But i'm good. Smiling and laughing and shit. Haven't replayed the senerio in my head i feel NOTHING!